^%#^#&^%

!$#!@#%$ si Dr. Dela C! Leche sya talaga. She gave us the quiz in ClinPath this afternoon. Yeah, she punished us real good. Her quiz instructions:

1. Write R on the first blank for every True statement.
2. Write E on the first blank for every False statement.
3. For every answer of E, write the word that made the statement false on the second blank.
4. On the third blank, write the word that would make the false statement true.
5. For those statements with the answer E, one wrong answer will make the other answers wrong. However, if all blanks are filled with the correct answers, it will automatically be given 3 points.
6. The perfect score is 30.

And you wouldn't believe what the questions were. When I saw the answer key after the "quiz", one of the questions had the word "several" on the 2nd blank (the word that made the statement false) and "one" on the 3rd blank (the word to make the statement true), while one had "former" on the 2nd blank, and "latter" on the 3rd blank. What is that??! Believe me, you wouldn't think that those words were the ones making the statement false, because the questions were really @!#@!@!#!!!!!!!

Those who attended her class were exempted from the quiz. They automatically get a perfect score of 30. I have nothing against those who were present. It would be unfair to them if they had to suffer her punishment too because of those who were absent. It sucks because I wasn't absent during her lecture on purpose. I had no intention of absenting myself from class during that afternoon whatsoever. When we finished the meeting with Dr. Tapia (for PrevMed again), we were late for that lecture, and our classmates told us that Dr. Dela C was furious because half of the class were absent. So we decided not to attend anymore, because we were scared that she'd go after those who were late. I wish she just gave extra points for those who were present during her lecture, or give them perfect scores if she wants. Pero di nya dapat pabagsakin ang scores ng estudyante at gumanti.

After the quiz, she was watching the students, and looking for facial expressions showing how bummed the students were because of her quiz. I think she was satisfied with the way she punished us. I saw that on her face. Yeah, her revenge is sweet.

I so hate her. Tama ba yun? Ma-mersonal? I mean, she gave us the quiz because she wanted to punish us. Aren't exams supposed to measure how much a student has learned? She used the exam to punish us. I don't want to be like her. I don't want to be a teacher hated by students.
I hate herrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh, I mean, WE hate her!!!!!!

ganito ang ginagawa ng tamad mag-aral..

Dimple's over at Helen's unit working on their PrevMed proposal. (Jeez, I should name this blog "the PMS blog"). So I'm home alone.

I haven't started studying for any of the exams for tomorrow.

Tatay, Tap-Tap and I ate at Yellow Cab this afternoon. Weee! Yummy!

I went to visit Me-anne yesterday with Mitzi. Goodness. Ang sarap titigan nung bata. Baby pa lang GWAPO na.

I found this pic too stuck to Me-anne's dresser mirror. It was taken about 4 years ago. Can you guess where I am in the pic? Yes, I am in this pic.

What's worse than hell? Last week was hell week. This week will be.. uh... HELLer? :)

Konti nalang bakasyon na...

Yay.

bayani ako

It's almost 4 am. What am I doing still up? No, it's not bloghopping anymore. I am actually researching. Still researching for that darn PrevMed proposal.

Uh, hello? Can somebody help me please? This is really annoying. I did the draft of the proposal that we had Dr. Tapia check last Thursday. So when she returned it to us for some revisions, I asked who wanted to continue the work.

Groupmate A: Missing.
Groupmate B: Gone deaf.
Groupmate C: "I don't have a computer."
Me: Ah okay. Sige ako na.

I am tired of doing this. But if I don't work on it, no one will (see above). And if I ask them for help (which I really have to specify what kind of help), I'll sound bossy.

And now here I am. While most people are in neverland, I am still trying to squeeze my brain for things to add to this proposal.

Thank you very much.

much-needed holiday

My father won't allow me to buy a puppy. I told him my friends are looking for a shih-tzu or pomeranian for me, and he told me not to buy one. Magastos daw. Kainis. Ah basta. I'll try to save for a puppy and I'll buy it with my own money. Good luck to me.

*EDIT* I have a shih-tzu already!!!!!! YAHOOOOOOOOOOO!!! Okay I don't have it yet. It's still with the shih-tzu mommy. It was born just last week I think... I was begging my tatay to buy me one or even just pay for it then I'll pay him back. He agreed. Woohoo! Of course there's no paying back.. hehehe THANK YOU DIMPLE!!!! Wahaha! Super thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

As of this moment, I am chatting on YM with Nicky. Haha! Congrats girl! It's her first time to use YM, and we're having fun with doodle! hehehehehe

Thank God today was declared a holiday. But still I'm gonna be one busy, busy girl later. I'll be working on our PrevMed proposal again, which was supposed to be submitted yesterday, but finally Dr. Tapia miraculously developed a heart, and agreed to move the deadline of submission on Monday. That was super, super, super relief.

T.O.X.I.C.

I haven't had decent sleep for a week. My eyebags look like maletas already. My room's one big mess. As in ONE BIG MESS. I haven't really cleaned my room for about a month already. I try to sweep the floor at least once in a while, otherwise I would have difficulty breathing you know. But it's difficult to find the time to really clean and put everything in order. Also, for 3 consecutive days, I fell asleep while doing school stuff: with the lights on, with my laptop still turned on beside me, and with me sleeping in a reversed position (my head on the foot of the bed, and my feet taking comfort in my pillow), and even sometimes face-down.

Sometimes, like Nicky said, it makes me think why I'm still here enduring the great medschool life. We also found out that our tuition fee for the next semester would be P70, 950. Instead of going down, it went up. Way to go, SLCM... With the way things are going, it's really possible that there would be shortage of doctors in 2010.

Well, I'm still here, trying to survive medschool. As Nicky put it, "If one sleepless night means a life saved, then this is all worth it." :)

And get this: Our patho finals will cover 47 topics- there will be 2 questions from each of the 45 topics, and a bonus of 5 questions (instead of 2) from the 2 remaining topics. That's really interesting. Now, what would be 2 things about the lungs that would most likely be asked in the exam? How about the heart? Thyroid? Liver? GIT? Neoplasms? Immunopathology? Pano na kaya sa boards? Hehe.

I still wish medschool wasn't this difficult.. and doctors weren't that merciless. Especially Dr. dela C.... She's going to give us a 50-point quiz(?) on Monday as punishment for half the class being absent during her lecture. She's one nasty ^@#*%. Grr.

Can't imagine how's it going to be once clerkship comes.

Scary.

toxicity plus damages

PrevMed proposal: deadline tomorrow.

Pathology projection practicals: tomorrow.

Pathology lecture quiz: tomorrow.

Microbiology lecture quiz: tomorrow.


Man..

It's been a long time since I've attended a pathology lecture... And tomorrow I'm going to absent myself from ClinPath at 7 am. I know I won't be able to get up that early to go to school.

Nasira palda ng uniform ko. Would you believe it got ripped off by the hood of a car? Okay. It was a dilapidated car.

When I got home, I found out my backpack's zipper was stuck. I tried to fix it but... yun na. Leche. Sira na uniform sira pa bag..

On the other hand, I'm glad there were few corrections in the proposal I made. Sobrang salamat... Dr. Tapia even left a comment that we're ready for presentation. Hehe Ready for her, sana kay Dr. Molina din..

I'm off to deal with those things I mentioned at the start of this entry.

Goodbye sleep...


P.S.

Happy birthday Joan! :)

approved!!!!!

haha! a cure for my PMS. wohhooo!!! our new proposal.... Approved! yahoo!!!

We are soo happy. And Dr. Tapia was much, much tamer than last Friday. She didn't bite our heads off this time.

Yehey. Jel and I were almost in tears (of joy, this time) after Dr. Tapia met with us. Seriously. Hehe.

Yun lang. :)

Oh, pampahaba ng space...


Go here.

Type my blog address or kahit anong feel mo.. Nyahaha.

Haha. Ghetto in an instant. Coolness. :)

Adios!

prevmed wooooooo

We're doomed.

We couldn't find any of the most important journal articles for our PrevMed research. My friend looked for the journals in UST. We needed a 1992 journal. They had issues from 1993-present. They had issues earlier than 1992.

But there was no 1992 journal.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sinumpa ata kami!!!

The whole day I was thinking of PrevMed. PrevMed in the morning. PrevMed while taking a bath. PrevMed while eating breakfast, lunch and dinner. PrevMed while driving. PrevMed PrevMed PrevMed the whole day. I called Jel to ask if she knows anyone from other medical schools who'd be willing to help us look for the journals in their libraries. Sobrang naiiyak na kami.. :(

We agreed to look for a new problem, in case we really don't get a copy of the articles we need. I just hope Dr. Tapia approves of it. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I'm going to tie my fingers in this position.

Anyways, my friend Me-anne gave birth to a healthy baby boy! Woohooo! Congrats! :)

I now have two friends who are already mommies! And both have boys. Haha. Cool. I'm this excited because I got to see a lot of Me-ann's pregnancy moments. Unlike Steph who was taken away to Isabela by Jeff.. Hehe. I haven't even seen my inaanak Jared. Steph, you better come home to Bulacan. At least let your son meet me before he marries!

Me-anne was supposed to have a normal delivery, but then they found out that the baby's umbilical cord was wrapped around the baby's neck and legs, so they had to do CS. I wasn't supposed to go already because it was already late, but Angie had a debut to attend, and my tatay had a meeting to attend too, so I was left to take her to the venue, and I decided to drop by the hospital after. I arrived there just a few minutes after the baby came out. Thank God they were both okay. Popoy (Me-anne's husband) and I were the first to see the baby. :)

Conversations with the doctors

(they're husband and wife. The husband's an anesthesiologist, the wife's an ob-gyn. They talked to me when they found out I was a medical student.)

#1:
Doctor: Balita ko 6 lang daw ang first year sa inyo?
Me: Huh? Sa St. Luke's po?
Doctor: Oo. 6 lang daw.
Me (said): Ay hindi po. Nasa 70+ naman po ata.
Me (thinking): San mo naman napulot yan?

#2:
Doctor: Ilan ang pumasa sa boards nyo nung first batch?
Me: Di ko po alam eh. 83% po ata. (Hehe I think it was the 2nd batch...)
Doctor: Ahhh may bumagsak pa din pala.
Me (thinking): Nge. Meron po bang medical school na nakaka-100% passing?

#3:
Doctor(a): Magkano ang tuition mo dun?
Me: Yung last po 68thou po yata..
Doctor(a): Mura pa nga yun eh. Pareho lang kayo ng FEU.
Me (thinking): Mura.. Sorry ha poor lang ako. Sige nga pag-aralin mo ko?

Hehe. Ala lang. Medyo lumakas hangin nun sa hospital.. Ewan ko ba..

For a moment there you thought I forgot about PrevMed? Nope. I went there too to ask Me-anne and Popoy (who are both grads of UP), if their library is open during Sundays and if we (non-UPs) could look for journals there.

I hate PrevMed.

homebody's frustration

I am tired. I am very, very tired.

I don't know how I managed to get through the week. I've never felt so tired in school in my entire life. Or is it because I've been here in QC for 2 weeks straight already and so far this has been the longest time I haven't seen home? Yeah 2 weeks. Pakialam mo kung masyado kong mahal ang bahay namin sa Bulacan?

I cried twice in school today. Frustration.

Since 2 weeks ago I have been researching on a problem for our PrevMed proposal. I was even absent almost the whole day last Wednesday because I spent a lot of time online that I slept at 3am. All because of researching for a potential research problem. And then we only got a problem approved yesterday. When I came home, I immediately researched online for related literature. Too bad, the most important journals weren't offered free online. I must've signed up for more than 10 sites trying to avail of the full-text of those journals. I managed to get some, but still the more important ones were unavailable. I woke up early this morning and immediately connected my laptop to the internet again and searched for journals again, while printing those I found the night before. All my print-outs were in red ink, because my printer's ink was starting to run out. I only stopped printing articles when the ink finally gave up on me and produced copies in yellow which weren't readable anymore.

So I came to school with those copies. I wasn't able to read them anymore because I had to review for an exam in Pharma, and I had to sleep too, you know. During PrevMed I went to the library trying to look for articles in the journals available there. And when we finally talked to Dr. Tapia about our research, what happened? Sabon to the max. That we didn't read the articles. Almost all the articles were crap. We weren't prepared. That we didn't even talk about our problem. Well, okay. We didn't talk about our problem.

I'm so frustrated because... let's just say, almost all the related literature articles were printed in red. It's difficult to talk about it here because I would appear to be the bad one, or the bitch when I talk about it. And to be perceived as a bitch by people is not something I can be proud of.

They wanted to meet up tomorrow in school so we could work on the proposal. I declined because I'm going home tonight. And if we go tomorrow, and have read nothing about our topic, wala din mangyayari. I was really irritated when I someone said, "Pano yan eh kailangan na sa Monday?" Hello? I've been doing nothing lately but research for PrevMed. Sana naisip mo yan dati pa nung nagkukumahog pa lang akong maghanap ng problem at kung ano-ano pinapakita ko kay Dr. Tapia para lang masabing naghahanap tayo kunwari..

I don't think it would be too selfish of me now to think of myself and go home. I'd still be researching, and preparing for the proposal-writing, but at least I'd be home.

Give. me. a. break.

I'm baaaack!!!

I'm back from Days with the Lord. I am tired, super tired. But it's all good. :)

I missed my Medicine Clinics class yesterday, and I almost missed my Pharmacology quiz. I woke up at 8am because I forgot to set my alarm before I went to sleep. And during lunch time, because I was too tired, I feel asleep again while trying to finish reviewing. The quiz was supposed to be at 12:45 pm, and I woke up at 12:40. As if it wasn't panicky enough, I stood up from the bed and found out that my left leg was numb and I couldn't walk for about 2 minutes. Good thing I was already dressed and ready to go to school so I saved time.

I came to school and guess what? The class waited for me before the quiz started, and I found out that we didn't have Med Clinics because our preceptor had a birthday celebration to attend to. Haha. God is good. :)

I love Days. :) You get to spend time with great people, who are all there for the same reason that you want to serve God, and you want to bring other people closer to God. It's super tiring, but knowing that you are doing things to make Him happy, it's all worth it. And, it really, really feels great when the participants thank you for the things that you have done for them to make their Days experience really special.. :)

For those who are interested in joining (the next Days is scheduled for October pa, and outsiders are allowed), you can email me (cami_j18@yahoo.com). Trust me, it will be a great experience. As one Dazer said, may rason kung bakit namin binababalik-balikan ang Days.:)

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Exams are over. At last.

Went to SM with Nicky and Dimple, to forget about things..

I bought the Tuck and Patti album already. Nice. :) And I bought a Beatles shirt from Top40. Haha. I'm not really a fan, the t-shirt just caught my attention. And I bought the t-shirt since it was only P355.

Doc Emer told me that Pharma teachers give difficult quizzes either because (1) they really don't want the students to pass, or (2) they want the students to study harder.

We had the Pharmacology exam yesterday. I concluded that Pharma teachers really don't want us to pass. Where the hell did they get those questions??

Old friends are great.

I had difficulty studying last night, couldn't keep myself from thinking about the problem I have with him. I needed someone to talk to. With my friends either busy, asleep, or married, I was left with a few people who I could ask help from.

Had a real heart-to-heart talk with my friend last night. Although it was through text only (it was past midnight and she was on duty at a hospital), she still listened to everything I had to say, and gave me words that were really, really enlightening.

It's great. During those times when you need someone you can run to who you know would understand what you're going through, you find yourself coming back to an old friend. And she still welcomes you with open arms.

The last time I opened up to her was almost 7 years ago, when we were in 3nd year highschool. We used to be the closest friends, really inseparable. I don't know why, but we just sort of drifted apart. I wish I didn't let that happen.

Not that I'm complaining about my present close friends, they've been really great, trying to lift my spirits and showing me their support. But sometimes, you want to talk to someone who really understands how you feel, because they've been through the same situation before.

It was also touching that although my other friend was busy with law school, she still managed to text me sometime during lunch today, and answered my questions with really long text messages explaining things to me and trying to make me feel better.

It's really great knowing that you have friends who'll be with you every step of the way. No matter how busy they are, or how long it's been since you last talked to each other, they still find time to understand your drama in life and make you feel that you're not alone.

I have the best friends in the whole world. I thank God for them.

depressingly desperate

Just a few hours ago, I posted about cutting down on too-personal posts.

Now what? I'm posting yet another personal thing.

I can't help it. I just have to let this out.

I am so confused.

Four and a half years. And now it's gone. I think now I know what the divorced call "irreconcilable differences". Plus, he thinks I am a two-timer. No, he believes I am a two-timer. I'm guilty of being a less attentive gf since medschool, especially the past few months. But infidelity? WTF?

I'm tired of it. He's thought of me as having relations with just about every guy friend that I have.

It's easy to say that it's already too much. That I have to stay away from him from now on. But it's difficult.

Anyone got time to text me and listen to my ramblings (and spend some money because of the text charges), please do so. I just need someone to talk to. Everybody's busy, and I don't want to be the first to send messages and go on disturbing other people's lives.

Hahaha. I told myself I'll be okay. But why am I crying again?

Are you happy now?

friend...ly

I've posted too much personal stuff in this blog. I just realized I don't even know who exactly are the other people reading this. Which makes it a little scary because they could use it against me.

You know, people who talk about you behind your back.

I just remembered a good friend who was crushed when she found out that her own supposed-to-be-good friends, were the ones talking about her to other people. And not in a good way. And to think this girl is one of the nicest people you can ever meet in your whole life.

I also know about people who had spread rumors about my good friends. And they're not exactly other people, if you know what I mean.

Let's put it this way.

There's a group of friends. Let's call them Group ABCDEFG. But, they're not really close to one another. Girls A, B and C are closer to each other, and girls D, E, F, and G are closer to each other. Then Girl A hears things not-so-good about her from another person, say Person X, from his/her friend Person Y. Then Girl A somehow finds out that Person Y was told about this by Girl D, who, as I've mentioned earlier, is from the same group of friends that Girl A is in, Group ABCDEFG.

See the problem? I guess I made it more complicated. Haha.

Well I can't exactly tell the story. It would just be too obvious. For all I know, the person(s) I'm referring to could be reading this blog.

just a few words

thanks to Joan for the Redemption Song code. :)

God help me in Neuro tomorrow...

talk about magic

Fifth long exams start tomorrow. Preventive Medicine in the morning. Medicine in the afternoon.

Which reminds me about those darn "magic". Any SLCM student would know what I'm referring to. Yes, old exams. Called magic because they magically make you pass examinations that you're not prepared for.

More often than not, our exams have repeat questions. Probably because the doctors are lazy to create new questionnaires, or because those questions are the most important ones that the students should know.

So what's the deal about those magic? In medschool you know how you're supposed to help your classmates right? You help each other pass. Aside from those transcriptions, you share those magic stuff. Just last time, I barely passed my Medicine examination because my friends and I were one of those unfortunate enough not to get a copy of the magic that mattered (there's more than one set, most of the time). So last time when our answer sheets were distributed, while those around me were happily counting their mistakes (which miraculously appeared quite rarely, to my bafflement), I was anxiously counting my correct answers (which also appeared quite rarely). And when I asked if they had a magic that was very similar to the new exam, they responded with a yes, one even complaining that she only saw that magic early that exam day. Duh. I wasn't even able to lay eyes on that set.

It's just not fair. Sure, we have to study more. And I know it's not right to depend on those magic stuff. But it's just not fair that while you're studying your ass off the night before, you still get lower scores than those who were blessed to study the actual exam questions. And in the eyes of the teachers, we are the ones who didn't study.

It's not that I'm pissed because they have better grades. I'm okay with passing grades, they don't have to be high, as long as they're passing grades. It's just so frustrating that when you have something you can share to your classmates, you share it, but sometimes there are still people who keep theirs from you. And when they find out that they were not given stuff like that, they're mad. Like, look who's talking, right?

Pag sila ang di nag-share, okay lang. Pero pag sila ang di nabigyan nung iba, galit sila.

I heard this one before (I'm not naming names), "Ano yan (referring to some magic), sa atin lang, or sa buong class?"

Selfish. There really are some people who only think of themselves.

Okay I gotta go. I won't be surprised if I fail the exams tomorrow because I spent my night online instead of studying.

Stupid me. hehe

P.S. These cars are cute! :)

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