Thursday, October 28, 2004

The Patch Adams Effect

Being a medical student enrolled at St. Luke’s, I always pass by the Medical Center. The first time I went there, I couldn’t help but be awed at how beautiful the Medical Center is- looking more like a hotel than a hospital. Plus, the Operating Room visit made possible by our Surgery Clinics made me even more amazed at how beautiful a hospital St. Luke’s is.

But today, we went to Bulacan Provincial Hospital. I’ve always heard horrible stories about this hospital, how my relatives always try to avoid going there as much as they can whenever they need to be hospitalized. My Tita Bonita who gave birth there, told me about how pitiful it is to stay there.

When we arrived there, at first it was all okay. I mean, it’s a government hospital, so it’s understandable that it’s no St. Luke’s Medical Center in splendor. The wards were similar with those of the Medical Center’s, with hospital beds side by side in one room. Only, there were no curtains to separate the individual beds to give each patient some privacy, and there were ceiling fans instead of airconditioners. Also, there were no doors separating the wards from the halls of the hospital, but only a wall with a wide opening. So you can imagine how just about anyone can freely enter and exit the wards, and how someone passing by can see all of the patients inside with just one glance.

But when I saw the ICU I was talking about in the entry above, that was when I realized how pitiful government hospitals really are.
Intensive Care Unit. As far as I know, and as far as I’ve seen on TV or in the movies, it’s an area that has the most restrictions. You’re supposed to wear a gown or scrubs, a mask, a cap, booties, etc. Ok, I’m talking about the required attire inside the Operating Room, but that’s how someone is supposed to be in the ICU too right? You have to be sterile. And visitors are not allowed unless it’s absolutely necessary.

But the ICU in the Provincial Hospital was different. Way different. Had it not been for the sign made of cardboard with the letters I C U written on it, I would not have realized the area Tata Itoy’s been staying in, is the ICU. The only difference it had from the wards I described earlier, was that it had a glass door, and an airconditioner. Apart from that, nothing else. There were also no curtains, I didn’t see anyone wearing gowns or scrubs aside from the nurses checking up on the patients. There was a sign on the door that said “Bawal ang dalaw”, but, bawal nga ba? My tatay freely entered the ICU to look at Tata Itoy, and I even told him to not enter because the sign said so. But apparently, di naman bawal. Anyone could freely enter the ICU. Even the ones without business there could enter. I watched in disbelief as people coming from outside the hospital opened the doors of the ICU, and entered without caution. No one was even there to guard the ICU, and make sure that the rules were followed. Not even the nurses at the Nurses’ Station situated beside it cared. And the glass doors of the ICU- the only piece of equipment that served to separate the delicate patients from the rest of the dirty outside world- wouldn’t even close completely. Everytime someone would enter, the doors would be left ajar.

So for that time that we stayed there outside while I listened to Inang Yola and my tatay talking about Tata Itoy’s condition, I made myself useful. I closed the doors completely after someone came in or out of the ICU.

Grabe. While every patient confined at St. Luke’s Medical Center settled for the best medical service, the patients at the Provincial Hospital were content with the acceptable. Though at times, when you look at it more closely, it’s not even acceptable.

I felt guilty right there, knowing how much money I spend on my tuition fee when it can help a lot of people there with their health problems. I remembered Julia Stiles in “The Prince and Me”, where her target work places were countries where medical services were most needed, instead of places where her career as a doctor would flourish.

I wish I could also sincerely think that way.

I’d be a hypocrite if I say I’d like to work there at the Provincial Hospital instead of at St. Luke’s Medical Center. I’d be plastik if I say I’ll settle for the passable standards of the Provincial Hospital instead of the first-rate principles of the Medical Center.

But there is one thing I am sincere about, no pretensions whatsoever: I want to help other people.

Yes, I still think of my own welfare, of what’s also good for me, because if not, there’s no doubt I’d work as a doctor with free services. I’m on my 2nd year as a medical student, and I still have 3 more years before I finally graduate from medschool. I still have 3 more years to finally realize how I could help other people with my chosen profession. I may not be as exceptional as Patch Adams, but I know my desire to help is just as sincere as his.

And it’s more than closing faulty ICU doors.

A Special Request

This morning I got to talk to my Tita Ninia, the wife of my Tito Rey, who I’ve told about in a recent entry- my uncle with liver cancer. I avoided talking to my Tito Rey though he was also there with my Tita, just because I didn’t know what to tell him, what to say to him, how to make him feel better, knowing his present condition. Stupid huh?

So then my Tita Ninia told me that aside from his husband battling cancer, her father is also now in the hospital because he got a stroke about 4 days ago. His condition is so bad now, that she told me her other relatives are “naghihintay nalang” for that time. So I immediately sent my tatay a text message about Tata Itoy’s condition (my Tita Ninia’s father), and suggested that he visit him in the hospital before he comes home.

Oh dear. I can’t imagine what my Tita Ninia now is going through. First, her husband- my Tito Rey. And now, her father. When I lost my mother to cancer, there was no way I could describe how difficult and painful it was for me and for my sister to lose a mother, and for my tatay to lose a wife. But my Tita Ninia, both her husband and her father are dying.

This afternoon we went to the Bulacan Provincial Hospital to visit Tata Itoy.

So when we arrived there, we didn’t know what room he was in. All we knew was that he was in the Provincial Hospital. We only knew his last name, which we asked from the Information area, but we had to look for him by ourselves because there were a lot of patients with the same last name as Tata Itoy’s. We searched for the wards but we were unsuccessful, and as my tatay was inquiring at the Nurses’ Station, I happened to be standing outside the ICU. I took a peek, and saw a man lying in the nearest bed, with a lot of tubes connected to his body- 3 bags of dextrose (I don’t know if they were all dextrose), a naso-gastric tube, and one for his oxygen support. The man’s condition was pitiable, and after a few seconds, I finally realized that the man I was looking at was Tata Itoy himself.

A few minutes later, Inang Yola- Tata Itoy’s wife- arrived. When my tatay asked her what had happened to Tata Itoy, she burst out crying. God, when she started crying, my eyes also welled up with tears. I tried hard to control myself from crying. Yeah, I barely know Tata Itoy, but seeing someone crying because of a loved-one suffering was enough to move me to tears. I know how it feels. I know how difficult it is to see someone you love suffer, and yet you can’t do anything to help him/her.

After a few minutes, Inang Yola calmed down and she was able to tell us more clearly about Tata Itoy’s condition. His CT scan result showed a ruptured artery at the back of his head (don’t know my Neuroanatomy anymore). Also, he has GI bleeding, and other complications. While my Tatay and Inang Yola were talking, I watched Tata Itoy through the glass door of the ICU. There was one moment when he was coughing, and I could see that it hurts him when he coughs. His right hand reached up for his nasogastric tube, as if he wanted it removed, only his daughter who was beside him stopped him from doing so. I don’t know, but when I saw that action, I thought maybe he wants his suffering to end.

The doctors told Inang Yola that Tata Itoy’s prognosis is bad. Inang Yola said that she has readied herself for the worst that may happen. Although the doctors have given up on her husband, they still decided for him to stay at the hospital. They want his suffering to end too, but they can’t take him home and also give up on him because it would be like they let him die. They’re still hoping.

Because when a loved-one is fighting for his life, you join him and fight for him too until the end, right?

Everyone who gets to finish reading this entry, please help me pray for all my ill relatives, as well as for my Tita Ninia. She is trying to be strong, because that’s the best thing that she can do right now, but I know this is very difficult for her to go through. Her family is planning to come home to the Philippines this November, but they’re still working on it. You know how it is in the United States- lots of things to settle before you can leave. Plus, tickets aren’t cheap, so there’s also the problem of money. But she told me lots of their friends there are helping out, and I really wish they could come home soon, as her mother also wishes, so she and her father can see each other before it’s too late.

Please, help us pray for them. Thank you.

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Happy


Happy sha la la
it's so nice to be happy

Know that song, right?

Well I'm happy. :)

Finally.

I've been low-spirited the past couple of days, and it's time for me to finally lighten up a bit. Yeah well there's still the problem of sick relatives... but, I asked
Mr. Jim Paredes and his blog readers for prayers and it feels great to know other people are praying for a miracle for your relative too. He's a great man, and his being great is way beyond his being an APO. Read his blog and you'll know what I'm talking about. :)

Okay, moving on...

So I'm happy. Yep. Been spending two whole days with Bryan, and I'm gonna seem him again later. :) Oh, I also finally bought the bean bag I've been lusting on since the start of the recently-ended semester. The owner of the condominium I used to live in has this huge bean bag, and I've been wanting to have the same thing. So last Monday, Bryan and I went to Dimensione and finally bought the bean bag. It's larger than the one I wanted originally I think, and it's black-my fave color! Weeee!!!

What else? Hmm.. We were supposed to go to Clark today, to submit something so we can get out passports, but it's Angie's enrollment so Tatay had to postpone it. Why passports? Tita Edna and Tito Philip (family friends) have decided to treat a couple of their friends to Hong Kong this Christmas. Yes, Hong Kong, treat. All expenses paid. Unfair! Di kami kasama. Anyways, we're getting a passport just in case some friends decide to back out. Everything has been reserved so if someone backs out, another has to fill in the spot because it's all been paid for. I wish someone backs out. Haha. I'm bad.. I mean, it's Christmas time (yep, their scheduled on December 25-27) and most of them have very young kids. So, you know... di pwedeng iwanan... Haha. Jeez. I sound so desperate... I've never even been on an airplane.. the farthest I've been to so far is Baguio (North) and Lucena (South). Pathetic..

Whaaa. Sabi ko Happy ako eh. Hay.

Okay, here's just the pic of me and my new bean bag. Just imagine how huge that is for you to still see a part of it despite my body. Hehe.





Who doesn't love bean bags?


That's all for now. Adios!

Happy sha la la...


Sunday, October 24, 2004

Meet the Parents

I finally met Bryan's whole family. Yup, just this morning, at 8 am. They're attending an affair this afternoon in Manila, where his uncle would be receiving an award. He said his sister wants to meet me as well as his cousin Marlet who used to be my textmate back when Globe wasn't on a pay-per-text basis. So since they were to visit also his relatives in Malolos, they decided to pass by our house too.
So yeah, I was already up even though it was still dark. Haha. I was nervous. :P I already met his dad before, but this time I'd be meeting the whole family.
It went well. Haha. Jeez, I was face-to-face with them for only 15 minutes. Meet lang talaga. Although I looked stupid again, hiding behind Bryan because I was shy. Yep, there goes Pretzel NiƱa again.. tsk tsk.
Tatay also met his sister and cousin and her friend, because his parents and uncle and aunt were left in their car. I went out with Bryan to meet them, and asked them to stay even for coffee, but they were running late I guess so they had to leave agad. Well at least I got to meet them. :)
I like his Mom. :) Pero takot ako sa Dad nya. Hehe Patas lang. Bryan's scared of my tatay too. :P
When they arrived at his uncle's house in Malolos, Bryan sent me a text message. His aunt's father asked him, "Ano Bryan, mamamanhikan na ba tayo?"
Sheesh. Hehehe. But that's a good sign right? I mean, I must be okay for them to think of me as Bryan's future wife? :)
Although I don't want to get married pa. Not yet. :)

Finally!!!!!


Wahahaha!


I'm addicted. :)

Will be working on a new layout soon. Weeee!!!

Thank you Che

Every cent you give brings me a step closer to my dreams.

Thank you so much.

Friday, October 22, 2004

God's Hand


I was feeling bad since last night so I pulled out my box of letters trying to find words that would somehow comfort me. I just want to share this poem that my friend Nicky made in her letter for me for Days.


God's Hand
Sometimes we must be hurt in order to grow
We must fall in order to know
We must lose in order to gain
Some lessons are learned best only through pain
Sometimes our visions clear
Only after our eyes are washed with tears
Sometimes we have to be broken so we can be tender
Sick so we can rest and think better
On things more important than work or fun,
Trip near death so we can assess how we've run
Sometimes we have to suffer lack
So we can know God's provision
Feel another's pain
So we can have a sense of mission
So take heart, my friend, if you don't understand today
Instead of grumbling, ask God what he means to say
In order to learn you must endure
And learn to see the bigger picture
In order to grow, you must understand
Look beyond the hurt to God's loving hand
That takes what is good and gives what is best
And on this blessed though, rest
As your anxious heart, with questions, wails
God's hand only gives what His loving heart dictates.

It's a beauty. Thanks Nicky.

To all the people I have hurt, or offended, intentionally or unintentionally, I AM SORRY.

Ate Tina, I'm sorry.

To Bryan, I am sorry.

To you, know that this isn't something I wanted to happen. I have my share of faults, mistakes, stupidity, ignorance, and pride. But don't blame me for what happened. You're hurt I know. I know how it feels to be left alone by friends. But please, like what I did before, be humble enough to reach out and accept your mistakes. I know the things you said were a result of so much anger, and I would've accepted all things you said if you had a right reason to say all those. I hope you understand that I am just a person too, capable of getting hurt.

I never thought I'd say this, and this proves nothing more than I am a coward because I'm saying this in my blog, instead of telling you personally... but for the pain I have given you, the things I have said, and for my faults, I'm sorry.

I hope I'd be able to say that to you in person real soon. Yes I'm not ready. Just because I still have my pride to hinder me from doing that doesn't mean that sorry isn't heartfelt.

I hope this is the last time I cry over this.

I don't like how I feel

I just got back from the retreat. Whew. I don't know how to describe it, but somehow I've never felt so guilty in my entire life. I hope a thing like this doesn't happen again.
What is happening to me?
Lately I noticed I've been too sensitive. A few remarks here and there and I end up getting hurt. Even jokes that would have made me laugh the life out of me turn out to be hurtful comments. I don't know why.
Something is wrong with me. That's for sure.
Have I changed? I don't know. Maybe? Maybe not? I don't know.
Should I change? I think so. I know for myself that I'm not what I used to be. Something isn't right.
Why is this happening? Is this because of the friend that I lost? Maybe. She has that much effect on me.
I thought she meant nothing to me anymore. I was wrong. All the while I was trying to convince myself and others that that's how I felt. How I should feel after all that's happened between us.
There she was, I wanted to hug her right then and there. I wanted to forget everything. I wanted things to be the same as before.
But I just couldn't make myself do it. I just couldn't make myself embrace humility.
Remembering what happened. What she did. What she said. I just couldn't accept the fact that she believes she has done nothing wrong to me and that I don't deserve her apology.
I want everything to be okay. But I couldn't forget the things that happened, which makes me not want to fix things with her.
I hate the feeling.

Sunday, October 17, 2004

Out of Control


We visited my Lola Tinay today, who, as I've told in the previous entry, is also in a delicate condition. I expected her to be pale and thin and all that. Aside from the fact that she was too weak to get out of bed by herself, she didn't look terrible at all, which was of course, very good. We tried our best to boost her spirits, saying that her condition was far better than my mother's before, which means it's something she couldn't handle.

What exactly do you say to a dying relative?

It was also good that we brought along my inaanak Tap-Tap, who made her laugh and feel better just by seeing him dancing his "Halukay Ube dance" and "sayaw bakla".

After an hour and a half, we decided to leave so she could rest well, and her daughter followed us outside to tell us about the truth about my lola's condition.

I thought it was her cancer that was the main problem. But we were told by her daughter secretly that it was her heart. They decided not to tell my lola, because that probably would harm her, kasi mahina loob nya. We saw her x-ray result, and I was aghast to see that the aorta was as wide as the heart itself. We were told it was because of cholesterol deposits. I never knew the aorta could be that big.

My Tito Rey's prognosis was bad, having only 4 months left to live. My Lola's was worse: she could die any minute now.

Grabe. Christmas is near, and all of a sudden, death is lurking around the corner too.

As if that's not enough, my father just told me that another Tita has been diagnosed with breast cancer.

Please continue to pray for my Tito, Lola and Tita. And also those other people suffering from cancer. I hope a cure for this dreadful disease will be discovered really soon. It's so sad to know how many lives have been claimed by this disease, and how many families have suffered because of the loss of a loved one.


Tip of the Day

When you're writing a blog entry, try typing and saving it in MS Word first, then when you're done, use the cut-and-paste magic.

I just finished writing a more detailed entry of the one above here and was changing the colors of the text when I accidentally hit the wrong key. And voila! A blank window.


Nakakainis!!!!!!

So what's above is the summarized one, with less feelings.


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Might not be able to update for a while. I've got exams until Tuesday, and after the last exam, go straight to Days with the Lord retreat until Thursday. Can't wait to experience Days again. I need it.

Especially now.

Friday, October 15, 2004

What can you do in 4 months?


What can you do in 4 months?

In 4 months, you can redecorate your room, you can plan an out-of-town trip with your friends, you can save money to buy new shoes, or clothes, or perfume, you can go on vacation, you can learn to play the piano, you can meet lots of new friends, you can go on a diet and lose weight, you can wait for a movie to come out in theaters, and so on and so on.

You can do a lot in 4 months. But you can't do all you want to do in just 4 months.

What if 4 months is all you have left?

Just this afternoon my father told me news about my Tito Rey. Some devastating news. His wife, my Tita Ninia, was told by the doctor that Tito Rey had only about 4 months left to live. I don't know if my Tito knows about it, but I'm sure with the pain he's feeling right now, he knows he hasn't much time left.

I didn't know what to say. How do you react to news that your uncle has only 4 months left to live?

A few minutes of a blank mind, then a sudden flooding of questions. Why him? Why does it have to be him? There are lots of people in the world with evil souls, why not them? Why cancer?

Why him?

He's a good man. He didn't commit any evil crime. He has never done any harm to anyone.

He's got a wife and two kids. Two young kids. The youngest hasn't even started school.

Although my Tito and I are not really close, it hurts to know that someone in your family is again losing the battle against cancer... I thought and honestly prayed to God that my nanay be the last person in our family to have cancer.

I guess God has other plans.

I want to believe that my Tito Rey will be fine. I want to believe that one day before that "taning" is up, he will wake up to find that he's okay. He's healed.

But being a medical student won't allow me to stick with that hope. It sucks to know what liver cancer is all about, what functions the liver has, what can happen to a person when this valuable organ fails.

For now, there's only one thing left: a miracle.

I believe in miracles. I have heard of stories of people being healed from their diseases. I have heard of people whose tumors have disappeared miraculously just as they are about to enter the operating room for the tumor's excision. I pray that God give my Tito a miracle. Because that's all we have left, that's all he has left.

Four months.

For well people like us, it's just a small piece of time in our lives. It's enough time to have fun.

But for people like my Tito Rey, it's the longest time that he can spend with his family. Para sa Tito ko, yun na ang buhay nya.

Please, help me pray for him.

*EDIT* I have another lola who also has cancer. She's had it for a long time, but now it's out of control too. My tatay just told me that from the looks of it, she hasn't much time left too. Her heart is also affected.

Everyone please help me pray for my relatives. And for our family too. That this cancer will just end...

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

Fahrenheit 9/11



I watched it just this afternoon. I only intended to watch just a few minutes of it, because I was trying to choose between Feng Shui, Imelda, and this one. I ended up watching the whole thing. Never mind that I preferred to watch this film instead of reviewing for the exams tomorrow.

Ganda. Galing. I'm now a fan of Michael Moore. Hehe. :P

Well it's really, really good. I cried a few times during the film.

You guys should watch it. It's really good. I mean it.

Take that compliment from someone who hates politics. :) That must mean it's brilliant, right?

Friday, October 08, 2004

Daddy's Day Out


I like the title.

Well, my tatay is not here with us. He's at some fancy hotel right now, probably having dinner with his marriage encounter friends. And they get to stay there for the night. It's all paid for by their host couple. :)

So my tatay told me about this invitation last Thursday, and I thought he sounded cute when he told me "Sabi ko titingnan ko kung makakasama ako, kasi Friday yun eh susunduin ko kayo ng kapatid mo." Hehe. Parang nagpapaawa no?

I told him to go. He needed the break. So this afternoon they went to fetch me from school, after which we went to Dapitan to fetch my sister. I was amused at how my tatay looked, carrying the backpack that contained everything they needed for their one night stay at the hotel. He looked really cute, like a kid excited to go on his field trip. And my sister and I looked like his worried parents asking last minute questions like "Kumpleto ba gamit mo? Nakapagdala ka brief? Yung medyas mo? Wala ka nakalimutan?" Haha.

Yet, the real father in him still showed through. He checked the van a couple of times, if the locks were okay, if the gasoline was enough, if the tires were okay. A few more bilin na paulit-ulit, and then we were off.

I hate driving at night. My eyes are especially blurred during nighttime. Since I'm wearing glasses, my clear vision is limited to a small area that the lenses of my glasses covered, meaning I am blind peripherally. And you know how Filipino drivers would just suddenly drive up their cars beside you from nowhere. Added to that, I was really sleepy. A few times during the drive(really traffic), I found myself opening my eyes to see that the car in front of me has already moved a distance about 3 cars away. Oh, it also rained. And the damn dirty wiper which was supposed to make the view clearer, made it even more blurry a few times so that I had to drive with my face near enough to kiss the dashboard. Thankfully, it started raining when we were near our exit so I saved myself from some real major back pain from being hunched for a long period. I wish I took real good care of my eyes. :(

When we got home, I immediately told my sister to text my tatay and tell him we were home, because it was his utmost bilin. My tatay's always like that whenever I drive without him. It feels like he's talking to a young boy driving a car for the first time, instead of a 21-year-old daughter who's even driven a van all the way up to Baguio.

So when I asked my sister to text him, she was like "Kanina pa nga text ng text ng 'San na kayo?'" Haha. He's the sweetest. I love my poperoo. :) Oh, last Wednesday I asked him to bring me some food the next day so I could eat a free lunch. He went to the market at 7pm to buy the ingredients, cooked, and brought the food to my sister in Dapitan, and me in QC at 7 in the morning of Thursday. May kanin pa. :)

Can't wait for him to arrive home tomorrow and listen to his stories of how insanely expensive hotel drinks are. :)


*EDIT* My tatay just texted me. He saw Piolo Pascual at the hotel. heehee.. :)

*EDIT again* Earthquake. Did you feel?

Sembreak


Whew. Barely two weeks left and it's sembreak again. Though, I have ambivalent feelings about it.

Why?

I love semestral breaks because it's a break from school! Hello?

I hate semestral breaks because it's a time when I feel really really worried. I may be out on a gimmick and having fun with friends, but at the back of my head are nervous thoughts: "Makakapag-enroll pa kaya ako?", "May pang-enroll na kaya ako?"

You know what they say about clowns? They look all too happy about everything and they even make people happy, but deep inside they're really crying.

In that sense, I am a clown.

So a few more days and I'd be hanging by a thread again.


Am I bad?

Recently, I've really been getting bothered about what other people think of me.

Do I really look walanghiya? Am I really walanghiya?

Just yesterday, lunchtime, Dimple and Mitzi went ahead to go to the canteen, and I was left behind because I was waiting for Nicky. I shouted "Ayoko sa kabisera!" because I couldn't see Dimple and Mitzi anymore because someone was blocking my view. You know how mataray my voice sounds right? So when I caught up with Mitzi and Dimple, they told me that a classmate heard what I just shouted to them and said "Pati ba naman upuan pinag-aawayan nyo? Mag-rumble nalang kaya kayo para masaya?"

Yeah it's a joke I know.

Apparently, this classmate has been hearing about the fuss going on in our group. And with the "ayoko-sa-kabisera" thing, he thought I was actually in a fight mode? And to say "mag-rumble para masaya", does he think having a misunderstanding with a friend is a happy situation? That not talking to a friend because of some shallow reason that progressed into something deep, is masaya? Sorry, mister, but having a misunderstanding with someone is not masaya. Fighting is not masaya. Losing a friend is not something masaya.

Mababaw ako. Yeah. Just don't say things like that because you don't know me.

And another thing, 3 semesters, and I changed homes 3 times.

I hope you all understand that this is not something that I find nice.

I have personal reasons, and it's only the second home that I had a problem with, knowing that someone deliberately tried to make me leave. It's just so sad that some people think of it as funny, and for me it's not. Because I know it's inevitable for people to think that it's me who has a problem, with those frequency of moving out. I just find it sad that others make a joke out of it. I do make a joke out of it, yeah, to soften the blow. Humor is a defense mechanism, you know. But I feel hurt when other people make the joke out of it. Especially when the joke feels like it's implying that you're the one who should make "pakabait".

Yeah I know it was just a way of trying to make me laugh. But that hurt. Maybe something really is wrong with me.

I didn't do things to make myself leave. Changing homes is not a joke. Especially when friendships are involved. Trust me on that.

I am not mad, I'm just hurt. I'm sorry about this.

Saturday, October 02, 2004

Pick pics


Can't think of anything to write about. Or I'm too sleepy to actually even think.

Just found this idea from the main blogger page.

Think of three pictures (see rules below) that you guys would like to see posted on my blog. :)

Rules:
1. not porn
2. not offensive
3. not scary

5. it's possible to post (don't ask me to post a picture of God, or of love... etc. yeah it can be done figuratively I think, but don't make it difficult for me. hehe. oh, also don't say pic of the most beautiful woman in the world, or luckiest person on earth. I want to be amused by doing this, not punished.)
5. as long as it's good to post. haha.

Please click the "What say you?" link now and type in something. :)


Is it obvious that I'm bored?

Still, I'd rather sit here and bore myself to death than keep myself busy with school stuff. Hah.

I hate being school-ish during weekends.

Color Me


HASH(0x8b58864)
You're the color blue. You have the three c's in
life--you're cool, caring and confident.
Trustworthy and honest, people are naturally
attracted to you. You're unusually optimistic,
but that makes life all the better. You're an
imaginative person who loves sleeping and
dreaming. Hard-working and determined, you
excell in school. You're everybody's favorite,
and this is because you have this undefined
richness in your personality and attitude.
Mild-tempered and stable. Not to mention very
intelligent. Along with the fact that you're
conservative, you're worried about the
environment. So basically, you're a generous,
dependable and devoted--just the kind of person
everybody needs. Wouldn't it be great if
everybody in the world were like you?


What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!)
brought to you by Quizilla

Haha. I sound like I'm the best person in the world. Not everything is correct though. I'd rather post the result of my Myers-Briggs test here. :) Anyway, I read all the other possible results of this test, and this one's the closest to what I am. Tama ba ko o nagfi-feeling lang? :)

Friday, October 01, 2004