happee

Happy.. sha la la... it's so nice to be happy... :)

My other wisdom tooth was already removed yesterday. My right cheek is really swollen. And it's really painful. I cried yesterday while the dentist was trying to remove the remnants of my tooth. Now, I can't eat. Can't open my mouth because it's reallly really painful. I cry when I brush my teeth. Hay....

:)

Thank you too Cha. :)

ouch

Just had my left lower third molar extracted this morning. Hurts. Really. And to think it was just a basic extraction that was made complicated by my tooth's unconvential position. Next week I'm scheduled for the extraction of my third molar on the right. That would be the surgery. Jeez. Can't imagine what it would be like. I'm so not looking forward to it.

Tomorrow we're going to school to interview our patient. I'm so not looking forward to it too.

Finally, talked with him. We're okay now. Just two words: Love hurts. Hahahaha.

@#%(*&

I just received an email from a groupmate saying that we're going to be given a patient for our Medicine case conference already.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God, perfect spoiler! Can't they let us enjoy the 3 friggin weeks of sembreak???? Kahit konti lang?? I mean, do we really have to report already the first week of 2nd sem? Can't they move it to the 2nd week nalang or something? Bwisit talaga!!! Naidas, mamatay ka na!!!!!!!!!!! Parang di ka naging estudyante! Sana lamunin ka na ng lupa kasama yang mga CAT for ek-ek mo na yan!

Shit. Where am I supposed to stay while we're doing that? I can't stay in the townhouse. I'll be alone! And people who know me know that I am a dead duwag of being alone, especially now that I'm kind of feeling things. And imagine if I have to go everyday to QC. The toll fees! Badtrip talaga!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Maawa naman sila...

I need a break. I really am pissed.

happiness in an instant

I read my friendster testimonials all over again. Can't believe how happy that made me feel. :)

woooooo

I wanna go I wanna go!!! :)

honesty

Sometimes people come into your life and you know that they were meant to be there...to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but when you lock eyes with them, you know that every moment they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, will power or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul.Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly-paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create who you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart to. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you. Create your own life and then go out and live it.

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"The thing that makes me wanna cry is, I'm losing the best friend I ever had."

-from My Best Friend's Wedding

People, I hope you understand that line first before you react and shoot me.

sembreak finally

Yahoo.

That's a happy yahoo or a sarcastic yahoo depending on how you read it. Honestly, I don't know if I'm happy that I'm home or if I'm not. Can't show my true feelings here. While in QC, I have the whole room where I can just lock myself up and.. well. Some people know. I'm a great actor, huh? I remember this tv show which featured the clowns of Enchanted Kingdom, and one clown said that it's difficult to be one because what you try to show them is a happy and a without-a-care-in-the-world person, but deep inside you really are hurting. So true. And I found out crying can actually take me on the verge of fainting. Breathing just gets too damn hard.

Anyways..

How can you be friends with someone who doesn't even have respect for you? Someone who magnifies his/her happiness by telling the world lies to make you look bad in the eyes of others? You can't understand why they do that. I mean, you know they know what they're telling is not true. They know you can't do that.

Okay I'll stop. Life isn't fair huh?

So, it's sembreak finally. But I just got home today, although classes ended last Tuesday. Well after exams, we went home to change and then prepared for dinner. We rode Donnie's kakarag-karag car, (hahaha! Thanks! Quite an adventure) all the while praying that the car won't give up on us. Luckily, it didn't. So we went to Eastwood and had dinner at Jack's Loft. Loved the place and the food. Although we were seated next to a guy who was ready to shoot arrows at the staff for not being attentive to them.

Then after that, we were strolling around, not knowing where to go next. We all just didn't want to go home yet. We deserved that break after all those toxicities in school. And then we passed by UP Diliman, and this crazy Donnie just drove around to tour the place. My goodness. I never want to go that place again. We entered this road where it was really dark and scary, and Donnie was laughing because I got quiet suddenly. He was happy I guess that someone could relate to what he was seeing. No, I didn't see anybody. But the feeling was just too much I closed my eyes and covered them with my hands before I could see anything. But I felt that there were many people around us, looking at us. Yes, spirits. I don't even know how to explain that feeling. It was really scary, I really went weak. I was already about to cry because I was so scared. They must've thought at first I was kidding, and Donnie was really laughing at me. But when I begged him to leave the place immediately because I couldn't take it anymore, I guess they realized I wasn't kidding at all. If other people want to have that gift arrive at their doorstep, they can take mine before it even reaches me. I don't want to have that kind of gift. I'm happy being ordinary, seeing only what an ordinary person can see, nothing more, thank you.

So after that scary thing, we decided to go to Quezon Ave. and try to see what bars have good shows that night. Then we came upon Punchline, and decided to go there when we saw Anton Diva was performing. It was hilarious! Haha. They were really funny. Very green, but still very funny. And Tuko! Omg, he was awesome. Haha. The voice! And that mannequin talent. Haha. Too bad they took my camera, it wasn't allowed inside, so we weren't able to take pictures. Cristy Fermin was there with Joseph and Sandara. Sandara was sooo thin! But yeah, pretty like on tv. :) And then, at 2 am, we left. I wanted to stay a little longer, since the 2nd set was just beginning, but, we have to go home before Nicky transforms into Dugong. :)

Then yesterday, woke up early to go to school and submit my pediatric history, then afterwards, Dimple and I went to SM North. I had my ears pierced again, and of all times for my symptoms to attack, why did it have to be during an ear piercing? Good God. I really really looked stupid to the people of Ibay's because after the 2nd earring shot through my earlobe, I suddenly just went dyspneic, pale, and my vision was slowly turning dark. Imagine what they were thinking. Fainting because of ear piercing?? And the lady who was doing the piercing was so scared she was asking me if I still wanted to continue, and she started talking to her workmates in a really fast native language. She was almost panicking. Whaaaa!!! I showed her my medicines and explained to her how my heart problem makes me feel like fainting and all. She really thought it was due to the piercing. Hello! It's like, what, my 3rd time to have my ears pierced? That was really embarrassing. Next time I'm buying earrings there I'll first have to take a peek if any of the 3 ladies are there or not. Jeez. Will I be like this the rest of my life? Having attacks anytime, anywhere? This is going to be difficult...

I'm going to be scheduled for my wisdom teeth extraction. Yes, teeth. Two of them grew inside my mouth in an unconvential way. This is what really scares me now, because I'm at risk of having infective endocarditis because of my valve prolapse. Oh God I hope I don't get it. I'm really really getting paranoid. I still want to live happily for many more years. Huhu. I'm going to buy the damn best antibiotics the world has ever heard of.. Hehe.

And now, here I am. Home.

Yahoo.

another goodbye

My 25-year-old cousin with cerebral palsy died just this morning because of choking. I feel very sorry for my Nanay Dely who loves her dearly. My father told me she's feeling guilty about my cousin's death. She was the one feeding her during breakfast. I hope that feeling would go away soon because she has no reason to be guilty at all. She's taken care of my cousin for 25 long years, I've witnessed how well she took care of her.

God bless them. Say hello to God for me, ate Rendell. :)