mi madre

Today is my mother’s 49th birthday. Since my father had to go to Pampanga for business (I know my mother would understand. My tatay’s been working like a dog lately), he told us to visit her and bring her flowers. So at about 11 am, my sister and I went to visit her burial place, we brought her a dozen white roses, and we prayed the rosary. I also talked to her in silence, asked her to still look over me and my sister, especially my tatay. Although my tatay’s got a new wife already, I can see that he still hasn’t forgotten about my nanay and that he still loves her more than anything in this world.

It’s been 5 years since she passed away, but up till now, I still having crying moments whenever I remember how much I am missing my nanay. Just last Monday morning, while I was reviewing for an exam, our neighbor turned their stereo on and played songs of praise. And then this song (the title was Power of Love I think…), which was one of her favorites, started playing. I was singing along at first because I loved that song too, then suddenly, I just got teary-eyed, and then I started crying. I miss her terribly.

Now it’s going to be our 5th Christmas without her, and it still is difficult. I can’t imagine how Christmas must be like for those who just lost their loved ones- the people of Infanta, the family of FPJ, the De Venecia’s, and many others. I sincerely pray for peace in their hearts, because I know how it feels to lose someone you dearly love.

I love you nanay. I miss you so much.