darn

After spending the whole day yesterday with my eyes practically glued to the computer screen and trying to decipher every single html code in my template, I view my blog today and find out that the stuff on the right side is not showing. Darn darn darn. Or is blogspot just down?

Jeez. A whole day and it still didn't come out the way I wanted it. So I guess that means this new layout is still a work in progress. If the right hand stuff shows up, you're gonna see that the links are not perfectly aligned in the center of the sidebar. I guess working on the new layout would have taken me a shorter time if I wasn't an OC with margins! I want every single padding, margin, and border perfect. But wanting to make it perfect didn't make it perfect at all. Not even close. Darn.

Aside from being OC with those darn pixels, maybe you'd also notice that I am a little obssessed with hands. Haha. My previous profile pic was an animation with the effect of my hand blocking a camera. Now my header image has an animation with the similar effect, with a hand shoving the id to your screen (well the animation is slow to achieve that effect). And if you look closely at the id, what's in the background? A hand, again. Harhar.

Oh, that's my hand by the way. I scanned it, photoshopped it, and practically put it everywhere in this blog.

A weekend is not enough for me. Hehe.

Still a work in progress. Will be working on a new layout this coming Christmas break. Haayyy.

I'm off to study now. Clin path and Micro exams tomorrow. And it's raining outside! Kakatamad tuloy. Sarap matulog nalang...

Okay, aloha!

waiting

If she's not asleep, she's probably reading my letter right now.

I said all the things I wanted to say in that letter. I was 100% honest. I'm worried it might make her angry again.

I hope not.

I hope she understands my purpose, my intention. And it's not to hurt her.

I'm still waiting for a response from her. A text message perhaps.

Argh. The agony of waiting...

I'm tired. I slept only for 4 hours last night because I made that letter.

Random thought: I want the Starbucks 2005 planner. Yeah nakiki-uso. Haha. Would somebody help me collect the stickers? :)

Oh, wish list update: No. 14. A miracle.

second chance

I don’t know if you guys noticed, but we’re (she was seated with us again during the p.m. classes) kinda okay. We went to Teriyaki Boy for lunch, because we wanted to talk somewhere distant from the school to avoid being talked about by other people when they see us with her. I ate Gyu-Yakiniku Don instead of the usual Tendon because I wanted to try the other items on the menu. It was rice with sliced beef with Teriyaki sauce and egg on top. I wish I just stuck with the usual. The beef was good, but the sauce mixed with the rice was too nakakasuya.

Enough with the food, I thought we were going to talk. But we didn’t, and I guess we were all sorta content with the situation of not having to talk about the topic that would surely bring up tension between us. I was surprised when she started handing out little yellow notes with a golden key attached to it. I was trying to look away, and I was half-expecting that she would also give me one. The other half I was expecting her not to give me one, because the story between the two of us was a little different and a lot complicated.

I received one.

When we came back to school, I went inside one of the cubicles in the CR and read it. I cried. Well, not really the cry I’ve done a lot during those times that we had the fight, but still, I cried. She mentioned about those things that we used to do when we were still together in one condo and sharing the same room: the conversations with Tata, the DVDs, window shopping, ghost hunting, the weekly groceries, and our Bulacan adventure when she went to Bulacan for my sister’s 18th birthday.

I was just teary-eyed when I read those. What made me cry was when I read this:

I’m sorry for everything.

All those words I said, about not being able to forgive her, about our friendship being forever broken… all those went away when I read that sorry.

Before today, I was really, really decided on being happy with the current situation. I was content with us being civil towards each other. I didn’t want to talk to her anymore, honestly, because I was sure all the anger and the pain we both felt before would surface. Even the thought of forgiving her was too much for me, after everything that happened.

But when she handed me a note with Sorry on it, that changed. She apologized to me, and I know it’s sincere, because though we haven’t talked, and cleared things up (which means there’s still the possibility that she believes I have done something wrong to her), she apologized to me.

I’m going to write her a letter after I post this entry.

Looks like this friendship has a chance after all…

Wow. Great feeling, I tell you.

wish list

Thanksssss Gingi!!! :) love the brownies. Hell, I ate a lot. If the box had a brownie counter, my name would have topped the list. Heehee! Thanks to Mabs too! :)

So yesterday after I ate a million brownies at Redg’s, Dimple and I headed to SM North Edsa. We originally planned to watch a movie (The Incredibles or Santa Santita because they were the most talked-about films), but it was already a little late. So we just checked for potential exchange gifts. I've decided on what I would like to have for an exchange gift: Body Shop’s Olive Body Butter. I’ve been lusting on that product for, I don’t know. 4, 5 years? I bought Body Butter before but I bought the wrong one because it was too greasy. Turned out I bought the one for very dry skin. Oh, I also want the Olive Dry Oil Mist! Smells sooo good! Just too expensive. I wanted to have a Winnie the Pooh carpet, but I changed my mind. I’d look for a black and white carpet muna. Okay, here’s my wish list:

1. My own room – seriously! I wanna have my own room at home! And its theme would be black and white!
2. a Yorkie!
3. cd-writer
4. a carpet
5. Body Shop Body Butter (Olive)
6. Body Shop Dry Oil Mist (Olive)
7. new pair of Birks
8. an aircon!
9. Body Shop Lip and Cheek Tint (I lost mine in school :( )or Benetint
10. LOTR DVDs
11. new eyeglasses (or contacts? Eeek. Scary.)
12. trip to Hong Kong (whaaa! Sana may magback-out para makasama kami!)

I’m going to update this next time. Haha. I want too many things. :)

Oh, number 13 on my wish list: No classes tomorrow.

Tomorrow’s a declared holiday- Transport holiday. I guess that means public vehicles will be scarce tomorrow. But whatever that is, it’s a holiday! There should be no classes! But guess what? We have classes. What’s more annoying is that, the Microbiology quiz will still be given tomorrow, but those who can’t make it to school will be excused.

Eh?

Enlighten me.

What the hell is that?

saturday thoughts

I was supposed to go with Tatay to Cavite, to visit my Tito Boy. But 2 consecutive nights of squeezing my brain to study for Pathology and Pharmacology (among other things) completely knocked me out when I got home. I guess my tatay witnessed how sleep-deprived I was that he didn't wake me up even before he left. I woke up at 9-ish, and he was gone. Although I was able to talk to Tito Boy because tatay called. He's not feeling well too. Jeez, another addition to the list of sick relatives. Seriously, what is happening to the family?

Oh yeah, my Tito Rey arrived last Monday from the United States. He was with his eldest daughter Denise, and my Lolo Larry. Haven't seen them yet, but my relatives told me Tito Rey still looked better than what was expected. I mean, he wasn't in a wheelchair or anything. He's yellow all over, and lost weight, but still good. His wife Tita Ninia and youngest daughter Rienne are set to come home this first week of December. They're spending Christmas here. I'm excited! It's been a long time since I've seen a happy Mendoza christmas. I bet everyone's gonna be present. I kinda missed those days when I was young. How occasions like Christmas, New Year brought happy family reunions and I see all my cousins, Titos and Titas having a wonderful time. My heart is closer to the Mendoza family than to the Sulit family. Haha. I don't know why. I've been like this even when I was still small. Haha. Am I bad?

Now on Monday, it's fiesta here in our barangay. Kainis, there are classes and I've got two exams on Monday, so I can't absent myself. My tatay just told me to bring some food on Monday and celebrate fiesta with my friends. Angie's cooking pot roast and menudo, Tita Bonita's going to make leche flan, and my Nanay Dely's coming to bring some more food. It's raining now, I wish on the day of the fiesta wag umulan para masaya. :)

Christmas is soooo near!!! Woohoo! Despite the financial problems, I still see a lot of decorations and I still feel Christmas! wee!

I want:

Saw this on the internet. Hehe. I don't know what's so special about Havaianas but I think this one's pretty.

Someone please give me a puppy please! Yorkies!!!! or Shih-tzu! They're too expensive, kaya hingi nalang. Haha! Dimplet, kumusta si Bridget? (hint, hint!)

Pay no attention to the Happy Halloween, the Yorkie's smiling!

Never mind the Havaianas, just thought it was cute. I want a Yorkie!!!! Somebody, please? It's Chrismas, and it's my birthday!!! :P

*EDIT* Cha!!! I got the perfume na! Thanks a lot!!! Mwah! Hope next time kayo na ni Che ang makauwi naman! :)

blogs - the next friendster?

Yeah. Joan and I were chatting online just a few nights ago, and we both confessed on how we're losing some interest in blogging. Well, not really. But there definitely was some reduction in my interest. It was like, "parang friendster: nakakasawa pala pag marami na". And blogger is really getting sloooowwww lately.

I'm not bragging or anything, that I'm one of those firsts in this thing, because I am not. I started blogging only last March, and blogs have been around for a long time already. I even thought this thing was for nerdy people, so I kept mum about my being a blogger for quite a while, until I found out I have classmates who were blogging as well. :) I even convinced my friends to start blogging as well, because I wanted them to experience how something so "nerdy" could be so great.

Now it's like becoming the next friendster. I was even more surprised to see in a magazine about Globe and Smart's blogs. I can't imagine globe offering a decent service without causing too much hassle and earning major bucks (haha I sound so anti-Globe. But my cellphone line's still globe. My father's asked me to have it terminated but my number's too "pretty" (easy memorization, dude) to give up. :P)

Okay I have nothing against those who are signing up for their blogs. This is a free country, and everyone's entitled to having their own blogs. That's okay, just as long as you're a decent blogger who doesn't use blogging as a way of picking on others who are blogging in peace. I've seen a lot of blogs where people leave nasty comments just because they get a kick out of annoying others. Now that sucks big time.

I hope I don't get nasty comments because of this entry. Haha.

But am not gonna stop blogging. Wouldn't want to stop my therapy. :)

Belated Happy Monthsary to my dear Bryan. Wow. 4 years and 5 months. :)
He's jealous of my blog, would you believe?

Hon, I love blogging, but I love you more.

super-size me

I saw this film last week, and it made me even more scared of consulting a doctor and getting a complete blood count.

Haha. Isn't it ironic? I'm studying medicine and yet I'm scared of going to a doc?

Yeah. You know what they say, "The worst patients are doctors." I guess future doctors (like me, hopefully) also included.

It sucks that after freshman year, Biochem, Physio, and Anatomy has made me very much aware of the effects of the food I am eating, and what could possibly show in the results of my CBC. Mr. Super-size Me Guy ate fastfood for only 30 days, and the numbers on his CBC are pretty... scary. Pano pa kaya ako? I've been eating fastfood almost everyday since 1st year college!

Problem is, despite knowledge of the possible effects of my eating habits, my stomach refuses to follow my mind.

But, good thing Super-size Me has at least taken my fastfood cravings away.

That's a good start, right? :)

Funny, just today, I ate A LOT. I ate like there's no tomorrow.

Behold cami, the food goddess!

After school, i ate:

6 pieces squidballs
cinnamon roll
ensaymada
2 superbawang (those mini packs of chichacorn)
rice and sinampalukang manok

All were eaten in a span of 2 hours.

Great job, Cami.

Oh crap.

P.S.

Belated Happy Birthday, Gingi!
mwah!!!

do that friendster thing

I'm bored.

1. Name : Niña Kristine Mendoza Sulit
2. Were you named after anyone? nope
3. Do you wish on stars? Yes, but only when there’s only one star in the sky.
4. Which finger is your favorite? Huh? Hehe hmm.. hintuturo? I don’t know.. guess it’s the most versatile? The thumb’s too short…
5. When did you last cry?: nung Days
6. Do you like your handwriting? : other people admire my handwriting (hehe vain!) but I think it’s still panget most of the time. Hehe may araw na maganda ang tingin ko sa sulat ko…
7. Any bad habits? : nagbubunot buhok when I’m thinking or studying
9. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf?: I rarely buy cds. I think I only have 2 original albums, craig david and boyzone. No, I am not embarrassed with having a boyzone cd. I used to be a great fan!
10. If you were another person, would you be friends WITH you? : haha I don’t know. People always tell me nakakatakot ako lapitan because I look masungit J
11. Are you a daredevil? : hmm medyo? I love the space shuttle and anchor’s away at ek. And I wanna try bungee-jumping and mountainclimbing and breakdancing.. hahaha pag pumayat ulit. But when it comes to trying out weird food, no way. I’m out.
12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? : yes, because it was needed to save the situation
13. Do looks matter? : nope. It’s not like relationships are all about admiring your partner’s face..
14. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid?: yeah but can’t remember the word anymore… but I remembered saying the word wrong, “nakakasukasok” instead of “nakakasulasok” and my classmate laughed and said, “ano yun, suka na pumasok ulit?”
15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? : sabi nila eh.. I wish rainbows stayed long enough for me to reach its end and find out..
16. Do fish have feelings?: Finding Nemo convinced me that they do..
17. Are you trendy?: no. my body won’t allow me to be.
18. How do you release anger?: I cry. I don’t throw things or punch pillows or people. I just cry.
19.Where are your second homes?: Tita Bonita’s house
20.What was your favorite toy as a child ?: I don’t remember.. but I still keep my childhood toys. I remember when our maid was going to throw all the old toys away because they were very dirty, but I stopped her because I was actually “naaawa” sa toys. Yep, naaawa ako sa mga bagay na matagal na samin and itatapon. Weird.
21. What class in school do you think is totally useless? : art appreciation?
23.Have you ever been on radio or television?: when I was young. Yung nag-field trip sa eat bulaga tapos dadaanan ka nung camera pag pinakita audience clapping? Hahaha!
25. Do you have a journal?: online only. Used to have one when I was in the 5th grade but got tamad writing. Masakit sa kamay.
26.Do you use sarcasm a lot?: yes. Haha! But you’d know when I’m being sarcastic.
27.Have you ever been in a mosh pit?: hell no
28.What do you look for in a guy/girl?: humor, brains, and a great attitude. Well basta mahal ko.
29. What are your nicknames?: nañi, sulit, cami, cams
30. Would you bungee?: yeah yeah yeah pag pumayat ako! I’ve been wanting to try that simula pa nung elem
31. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?: haha oo nga no? no, I don’t.
32. What are you worried about right now?: my ill relatives, my studies, my health (I’ve been experiencing dyspnea recently), my tatay’s problems
34. Do you think that you are strong?: I guess… sa dami ba naman ng pinagdaanan ko eh..
35. What's your favorite ice cream flavor?: selecta double dutch. No, I don’t like double dutch pag di selecta. Sorry ha di pa ko nakatikim nung haagen dazs. Poor eh.
36. What are your favorite colours?: black. And violet.
37. What is your least fav. thing in the world?: hmm.. anything that does harm?
38. How many wisdom teeth do you have?: 4. one’s impacted I think. I have to have it removed soon before it kills me… whaaa!
39. Are you in love with anyone?: yes.. hi bryan..
40. How many people have a crush on you right now?: does bryan count? If he does, one. If he doesn’t, zero.
42. Who do you miss most right now?: bryan..

Numbering's wrong. Haha. Yeah I'm bored.